WHEN THE "C" WORD TALK SILENTLY STARTS TO CHANGE:

"CONFESSIONS OF A LIFE SURVIVOR"

WHEN A BEAM SURPRISE COMES OUT THROUGH THE DEAD OF NIGHT.

WHEN LIFE U-TURNS ABRUPTLY TURN UP TO STAY:

STUNNED, DISBELIEF NOT KNOWING WHAT TO SAY:

WITH A NEW LOOK ON THE WAY TO PLAN YOUR DAY:

YOU KNOW A MAJOR CATYLIST IS WELL ON ITS WAY:

When the family blue you had a long while ago are no longer there.

When once ignored, phone calls are returned on that very same day.

When previously locked doors of 'Too Busy'are opened out of the blue.

When groundswell of long lost connections suddenly come to light.

MY TALE IN PROSE:

At times when one just rolls from day to day on life’s road, a road block sign blocks the way.

Requiring the unplanned and unexpected  “U-Turn” to you for a place you don’t know where.

The first and significant event came our way in 2014 which still shakes our family to the core.

The second and most recent waited another eleven years to present a sudden change of direction.

CERTAINLY NOT MY FIRST EXPERIENCE OF A LIFE U-TURN

A sphere unknown and complete when priorities are rearranged from the background to the front.

Where social outrage condemnation reigned supreme to careful steps of own survival and the fam. 

U-Turn coming blunt and swift from random Dr check-up, to reveal an unknown, medical scare.

No signs, no ill effects for a warning but for certain the scans and worried Dr faces cannot tell a lie.

SO WHY NOW TO SHARE WHAT TO SOME INCLUDING MYSELF, MAY KEEP AS A PRIVATE MATTER.

Every action must have purpose and a reason why and my reason is to be the catalyst of awareness.

Heightened awareness that acts before the grave outweigh sorry thoughts expressed at the wake.

The decision most certainly not taken for sympathy benefit as I am focussing living for the now.

 Much more because the good that comes of sharing of what works for them, far outweighs the bad.

MY CANCER DIAGNOSIS AND RESPONSE, NOT MY FIRST RODEO MATE:

Potentially on the serious side albeit with no symptoms, either prior to or after a routine check-up.

Talking up to the sky: “It may not suit me”--“I may not comply”--“I have been known to be difficult”

My first life rodeo was when was actually on a horse and twisted my back, exposing the spinal chord.

Specialist advice was serious mate, you could end up in a wheel chair: that concept didn’t suit at all.

SO ON THE CHOICE OF PROBABILITIES OF SHARING, I RECKON THE BENEFIT OUTWEIGHS THE BAD:

Club I have just entered is far bigger and caring than I imagined. Statistics every day 40, 176,00 yearly

So too are the number of those surprise prognosis. With good results, the power of positive sharing.

Daily random messages of support from outsiders who took the time to say I have crossed their mind

My pledge to respond to each and every one, I am so aware I am not travelling this journey all alone.

A PLEDGE TO NEVER SAY NO TO THOSE WHO OFFER: THEIR OFFER IS TO BE TREATED WITH RESPECT:

A genuine zone of thinking of others thinking beyond themselves and me think beyond my own self.

Where focus becomes clear, awareness is heighted that many others may silently be doing same path

Where the connection of your life ‘Keepers’ become eternally deeper, far beyond words to be spoken

Maybe too, there is an opportunity where I can take the role of the contributor and not the receiver

ALL ABOUT THE MUSIC: --POWER OF THE BRAIN AS THE CATYLIST OF RECOVERY:

A snap decision to attend Tamworth country music festival for first time proved to be a good choice.

About to leave, the voice of doubt left a warning, it might be just as easy to hit recliner in the AC.

Might feel sick, where to park, too far to walk , WAIT! ‘fuck off’ doubt--Get in the car and drive.

So it came to be, as all plans came together as the power of people in music became a healing force.

A VIEW FROM HEAVEN ABOVE:

Bible passages from a writer friend, I got this reference. Psalm139 verse16

“Just passing through this earth-spirits are eternal

Your eyes have seen my formless substance:

And in your book were written- All the days that were ordained by me.

When as yet there was not one of them.' - Psalm 139:16 NASB20 translation.”

In other words, it's not over until our Creator says it is, or until 'the fat lady sings!'

So going with, still here and no sign of any ‘Fat Singing ladies’ at my recent musical expose

SOME JOURNAL HISTORY: ALL ABOUT JOURNALS:

In my U-Turn of 2014 with the loss of Billy, I journaled my thoughts daily, sometimes hourly.

Not planned, just a jerk reaction, however such activity proved to be therapeutic for myself.

Shared with close friends and family, it was suggested I share wider, maybe to help others.

For others to make what they will, I published same in my book “People Places Pubs & Dunnies”

For the same reasons, in U-Turn 2025/2026 I am recording another, Titled “The Longest Weekend”

Thinking I may be too close to the forest to see the trees, I approached my good friend and author.

If I give you the raw data as base, would you progress the next stage to completing and publishing.

A firm not unexpected answer of YES now a handshake deal, for down the track.

Thank you so much

Amy [Amelia Olsen Author]

THE TIMES WHEN NEW FRIENDS BECOME OLD FRIENDS

Worry not about how I be, for what I are is what you see.

Though now new look, trendy shiney, viewing from the top.

My mental space is big picture, feeling positive clear and free.

Support of medical team, family care & dogs I have got the lot.

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